I know I've kinda disappeared... but I'm trying to get the blog up and going again. One thing I've realized is that I have a tendency to seriously disappear off the face of the Earth. I really try to keep in touch with everyone and get myself out there, but I find myself being occupied with school, church, anti-bullying movement, work, or etc.
Speaking of my anti-bullying movement, I made an appearance the Board of Education Meeting with some friends and we really made an impression. As a result, we were published in the newspaper. Great stuff. :) We talked with a lot of the Board and actually, I just met with the Superintendent and Principal of our school. I can't really say what happened and all, but pretty much, good things are coming! There's a lot to be planned, organized, and worked on, but it will all pay out in the end.
Anyways, my life has been pretty chill for the most part. No drama lately. Excited for prom, and just going with the flow.
This past weekend, I went to Illinois to see my brother graduate from boot camp in the Navy. It was great considering I got to see him and his fiancee's family, whom I never met. But in that experience, I recall being in the airport and walking around. People are so occupied with life and just really don't pay attention to the small details or what's really going on. I told my mom and myself that, "One day I will be flying across the nation speaking of my anti-bullying and spreading the word." One day...
I looked up and about and I was gliding across on the moving floor, I thought that life just goes by so fast and that we really do need to make the best of it. I'm not backing down; I'm going to give it my all. People may not understand what I do, who I am, or what I intend, but they will remember me for what I have done.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Day 39: Lent 2012
There have been 3 things on my mind all day:
1. I long for freedom. To do as I please and enjoy my life. Escape all that holds me back.
2. There's not a day where I don't wish I was born into a different family. I'm going to snap soon.
3. I miss people. And I wonder if they're missing me.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Day 21-38: Lent 2012
I know it's been a real long time since I've blogged, but there's a reason for it being so. I've been caught up in A LOT of stuff. I've thought about a lot of things while being absent from my blog. In order to catch up over the 10 past missed days, I will try my best to condense all that has happened and occurred throughout my Lenten journey.
So the weekend of the March 16-18, my life took a dramatic turn. That weekend I was going on the Spring Retreat with my Youth Group at church. I met a lot of people in my YG (Youth Group) that I never really talked to that much and I grew closer to a lot of people. Everything was going perfectly awesome until that fateful event on Saturday night. We were all partying, singing, dancing, and just having a good time until we were all sent to our cabins and couldn't come out.
What happened....?
One of the persons in my Youth Group, who was on the retreat, received word that his dad was dead. Something worded like that. In that moment, it's as if something just overcame almost everyone in my YG. I for one, wasn't really crying, but I mean I couldn't imagine what my friend was going through and I truly felt for him. Everyone got out of their cabins and we all circled up. The Core Team told us the news through tears and told us how much they loved us and cared about us. Being in the dark, only with a few lights scattered, I sat in that moment.
This moment stands out in my memory so well. I was standing there, hand in hand with my friends. All around you saw people running out of the cabins, bathroom, and everywhere. Calling each other, jumping the fence, and joining the circle as soon as possible. That's what a true emergency looks like. It's weird because I've never witnessed or been in an emergency such as this. It was a chaos, but we all united for a purpose.
We prayed the rosary as a Youth Group. It was amazing how strong our faith grew that night. Afterwards, everyone just kinda did whatever. People were crying and hugging. People were just lying in their bunks. People taking a shower. Just everything. We just knew that none of us could go to sleep. My friend, who's dad died, he was in the same cabin as me and I pointed out to my friends in the cabin that it was so depressing to look at his stuff in the cabin. We packed up everything, but still....it's just sad to think that he was happy yesterday, or even a couple hours ago. Everything just changed.
Anyways, something in me just sort of sparked up and I got with my friend and we formed a circle with the YG again. However, my friend and I got in the middle and we sang Lead Me to the Cross. It was so beautiful. Our voices becoming one and others joining in. Then I led a prayer and had others offer their prayers for our friend and his lost. So many of us were crying. I finally started to cry for the first time that night. I cried while singing and while leading the prayer. I love my friend and I just feel so much for him.
After that, we all hung out in the hall up on the hill and we prayed together. Talked, read bible verses, and just found comfort in each other. That night really brought us together as a YG. I always say that something good comes out of every situation, especially bad ones. And even how bad this situation was, we all came together and really showed that we are a family. We are a family.
I was pretty emotional for the next couple days and I would cry here and there. I could not blog at all and I could barely focus in school. It was just tough.
So that upcoming weekend, March 23-25. I had the opportunity to work on a retreat called SEARCH. I've blogged about it before, but as stated before, I'm not allowed to say anything about it. :) Anyways, it being my 3rd time working on this retreat, I always experience something new and I take back something different from it.
Watching all the new Searchers grow in their faith journey is something that really inspires me and seeing how they all grow close to each other is something that is just plain out beautiful. One song we sang a lot during the retreat was How He Loves and actually I went to Fusion awhile back and they played it and the second the song started, I just teared up. All the memories rushed in and I just thought about everyone on the retreat. It was such an amazing experience and I just miss everyone so much.
What saddened me more is that a lot of my friends that I worked with on the retreat are Seniors, so it being the last Search Retreat of the school year, I will never get the chance to work with them again. It's pretty sad but they will always have a place in my heart.
School has been school. Nothing special, nothing new. Trying to work on my Anti-Bullying Movement, getting things sorted out for prom, and just finish up Junior Year.
So here I am now, just living life. Enjoying what's left of my spring break. I've been working like non-stop so I can have more funds in my account. Along with filing for my taxes, I'll soon have a nice load of money pretty soon. Always a good thing.
Just waiting for the future to bring what is has to bring.
So the weekend of the March 16-18, my life took a dramatic turn. That weekend I was going on the Spring Retreat with my Youth Group at church. I met a lot of people in my YG (Youth Group) that I never really talked to that much and I grew closer to a lot of people. Everything was going perfectly awesome until that fateful event on Saturday night. We were all partying, singing, dancing, and just having a good time until we were all sent to our cabins and couldn't come out.
What happened....?
One of the persons in my Youth Group, who was on the retreat, received word that his dad was dead. Something worded like that. In that moment, it's as if something just overcame almost everyone in my YG. I for one, wasn't really crying, but I mean I couldn't imagine what my friend was going through and I truly felt for him. Everyone got out of their cabins and we all circled up. The Core Team told us the news through tears and told us how much they loved us and cared about us. Being in the dark, only with a few lights scattered, I sat in that moment.
This moment stands out in my memory so well. I was standing there, hand in hand with my friends. All around you saw people running out of the cabins, bathroom, and everywhere. Calling each other, jumping the fence, and joining the circle as soon as possible. That's what a true emergency looks like. It's weird because I've never witnessed or been in an emergency such as this. It was a chaos, but we all united for a purpose.
We prayed the rosary as a Youth Group. It was amazing how strong our faith grew that night. Afterwards, everyone just kinda did whatever. People were crying and hugging. People were just lying in their bunks. People taking a shower. Just everything. We just knew that none of us could go to sleep. My friend, who's dad died, he was in the same cabin as me and I pointed out to my friends in the cabin that it was so depressing to look at his stuff in the cabin. We packed up everything, but still....it's just sad to think that he was happy yesterday, or even a couple hours ago. Everything just changed.
Anyways, something in me just sort of sparked up and I got with my friend and we formed a circle with the YG again. However, my friend and I got in the middle and we sang Lead Me to the Cross. It was so beautiful. Our voices becoming one and others joining in. Then I led a prayer and had others offer their prayers for our friend and his lost. So many of us were crying. I finally started to cry for the first time that night. I cried while singing and while leading the prayer. I love my friend and I just feel so much for him.
After that, we all hung out in the hall up on the hill and we prayed together. Talked, read bible verses, and just found comfort in each other. That night really brought us together as a YG. I always say that something good comes out of every situation, especially bad ones. And even how bad this situation was, we all came together and really showed that we are a family. We are a family.
I was pretty emotional for the next couple days and I would cry here and there. I could not blog at all and I could barely focus in school. It was just tough.
So that upcoming weekend, March 23-25. I had the opportunity to work on a retreat called SEARCH. I've blogged about it before, but as stated before, I'm not allowed to say anything about it. :) Anyways, it being my 3rd time working on this retreat, I always experience something new and I take back something different from it.
Watching all the new Searchers grow in their faith journey is something that really inspires me and seeing how they all grow close to each other is something that is just plain out beautiful. One song we sang a lot during the retreat was How He Loves and actually I went to Fusion awhile back and they played it and the second the song started, I just teared up. All the memories rushed in and I just thought about everyone on the retreat. It was such an amazing experience and I just miss everyone so much.
What saddened me more is that a lot of my friends that I worked with on the retreat are Seniors, so it being the last Search Retreat of the school year, I will never get the chance to work with them again. It's pretty sad but they will always have a place in my heart.
School has been school. Nothing special, nothing new. Trying to work on my Anti-Bullying Movement, getting things sorted out for prom, and just finish up Junior Year.
So here I am now, just living life. Enjoying what's left of my spring break. I've been working like non-stop so I can have more funds in my account. Along with filing for my taxes, I'll soon have a nice load of money pretty soon. Always a good thing.
Just waiting for the future to bring what is has to bring.
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