Quite the Relaxing Life

So what's on my mind? Hmmmmm......I would say lately that life has been ultimately chill. I had a party Monday and it turned out pretty amazing! :) Talk about adventures. Ahahaha. Me and a group of friends who I freakin' love to death and mean the world to me, we played Just Dance, blasted music and danced, made it rain, drove around my golfcart through everywhere, and just had a great time overall.

I haven't really had drama which is pretty good because I absolutely hate drama but even when I do have it, I'm really chill. Whenever people tell me stuff and whatnot, I just have this really chill attitude. Sometimes I wish, "F*** this S***!!!" was the solution to everything, but it's not. Sad. :'(

One thing that has been on mind though is that I want something do with life. I feel that now it's so chill and normal, that I'm starting to not like it. You have no idea, but I really want to go out into the world and just do something big. I'm so ready to get out of highschool and start a life of my own. I wanna see the lights of cities, I wanna fall in love, I wanna dream big, I wanna succeed, I wanna be the one person that changed someone's life. My parents aren't really big on supporting me on any ideas I have. What I don't get is that my parents don't care about my social life and what I want to do. I feel like I'm a deprived child and I'm living a sheltered life. Haha, funny way of putting it, but that's how I feel and it's somewhat true.

All around me, friends are going out and doing everything I can't. Driving is sorta one of those things. I know driving isn't a right, it's a privilege. But isn't that something I deserve? I mean forreal, I'm an All-A student, ranked 19 out of like 700 students, President of the Sophomore Class, involved in church and school clubs, and a person who just lives above the influence. What else do I have to prove? Nothing I do is never enough for my parents. I'm always getting angry at them because I'm unappreciated. Heck, I get a low A, I get yelled at. I know they are pushing me to do my best and succeed and not end up like my half-brother, but sheesh. I got an 89 for a 9 weeks grade in AP Stats (which doesn't even matter, semester averages do) and my step-dad flipped out and started cussing and what not. Like seriously, other people would kill for grades like that. Parents would be throwing parties for their kids! Idk, I just feel unappreciated and that I can't do anything even when I put forth my best.

I guess to wrap things up.......

Freedom is all I want.