Day 8: Lent 2012

I will keep walking forward. I will keep moving forward. You're either with me or not.

In my high school life, I've had a lot of friends, some of whom that were really close to me. At this point of life, I've realized that a lot of them are gone now. And you know what? I'm completely fine with that. Friends come and go, and some of them actually stick around. I for one, am constantly moving forward because I don't have time to sit in the past and drown in my sorrows or past decisions. I dedicate my whole being into friendships and if you can't offer the same, then it might not work out. Not saying that all friendships will end in shreds, but if I serve no importance or real value to you, then I really have no place as being your friend.

Now all of this sounds kinda sad and brutal, but it's really not. The bonds between friendships really do drift apart sometimes and if this is what is to happen, then I will accept it as it is. It doesn't mean it's truly over but that there may be a possibility for a friendship again in the future. I'm okay with losing friends. Whatever it may be about, everything serves a purpose and you can only appreciate what your friend has given you in return. There is good in everything and I firmly believe that you have to thank all the people in your life. Such as the ones who helped you, loved you, and guided you, as well as the ones who hurt you, because in the end, they have all made you a stronger and better person. That's the true gift. Don't take that for granted. God puts people in your life for a reason.

In my situation, I'm kinda just trying to find my place within friends. I fight for all my friends, but it's over when you've given up on me. I want others to fight for me, not because they are forced to, but because they want to. Because they don't want to lose me. I hate to let go of people but everyone has to move on at some point. Life goes on. And as much as I love being a good person and being there for others, there is a time when I simply can't give anything else. I can't set myself up for disappointment. I will give you all I have to offer. 110%. I'll do my part, but will you do yours? I always think, one day I will be gone and that will be it. No holding back. I will merely be a memory to remember by.