Let the Session Begin

So school is back and I'm now a Junior. Wooooot woooot! Upperclassmen! It's been a pretty stressful year so far considering only a couple of weeks have gone by, but I feel like I've been in school for months....sheesh. I'm just ready to graduate! But I'm not the only one that feels that way. Anywho, I know things will work out and maybe calm down a bit, but I know right now I just wanna drop my AP Biology class and I want to quit band. I honestly wish I had finished my summer work and what not for AP Bio and Language, but eh..... 2 deaths in the family over the summer + having to work like 4-5 days a week + having marching band. Just one busy summer. I already feel like a failure, but I need to really get things in gear!

Anyways, I was laying in bed today listening to Canon Pachelbel in D and Four Winters by Vivaldi. And something really struck me, but has been mentioned before. School is important and receiving an education is vital in living out your life and becoming successful. But school doesn't teach you everything. It doesn't teach you how to hold yourself together when you're heartbroken, when you're feeling down, or when you get back stabbed. It doesn't teach you how to fall out of love when you fell in love, how to keep striving for something that's not there, or how to keep living when you have no purpose. School presents us with these challenges. And in a way, it's a good thing because it's an individual journey that we have to venture through along with friends who will aid us on the way.

I wonder if this is how it's supposed to be. Because I really do wonder why I go to school. School will never teach me how to get rid of the holes in my heart and will never rid of the pain that I endure everyday. Everything has to be learned by experience. Just because someone tells you something doesn't mean you won't go do it. "Don't get hurt from him/her. Don't do it." Those seem like really blunt examples but I think you pretty much understand. People will give you all the advice in the world, but whether you use it or not depends on you. And you understanding it's another whole concept.

People aren't who they turn out to be these days and people are constantly judging. It's hard to be who you are and I've realized that, but there comes that point where you have to let go and just be who you are. Though some people may not accept you for who you are, you have to live with the fact that nothing can change you. I know I'm not always saying what's on my mind and sometimes I hold myself in but the only reason I do it is because I want somebody to actually want to understand what I go through and what I really want to say. If you only knew.

I'm just now picking up on this blog and quite frankly, I need to start blogging more and saying what goes on in my life. Things are quite mellow and I'm just doing what I do best. Making sure that my friends know they are loved. :)